à la côte

It’s been more difficult than I expected to convert to musical writing. It’s really hard for me to let my guard down and let out what I truly feel when I know people are going to hear me speak it to song.  Or speak it at all. I have the curse of an audibly unsure voice, though I feel when someone reads my writing to themselves, I come through with much more gusto. 
I need to meditate and find my voice. I don’t know that I’ve ever really had it. Since as long as I can remember it’s escaped me, and I don’t want to go into sharing something so intimate while seeming so reluctant to do so.

I have one poem I wrote back in October that I’m thinking I might put in one of my songs:

http://cokanefriendly.blogspot.com/2011/10/old-one.html